Reflections on 2012

These are a bunch of my tweets showing some of my insights for 2012:

• In another life my perfect job would involve music,children, animals and a selected few of my best friends #reflections2012
• I've learned a lot this year technically and personally #reflections2012
• This year I lost most of my knees' cartilage to aggressive cardio workouts, use ur knees wisely :))#reflections2012
• I failed misreably to diet this year #reflections2012
• To a lot of stuff/people: it was good while it lasted #reflections2012
• There is no serenity and peace of mind in this world, hereafter isA#reflections2012
• It is still possible to make good friends in the late 20s#reflections2012
• I can't play politics with people, I can't be something I am not#reflections2012
• There is no such thing as unconditional love or care except maybe from your parents #reflections2012
• I was\am really attached to my grandparents may they all RIP#reflections2012
• There is no such thing as the perfect scenario in anything, perfection doesn't exist #reflections2012
• It is really important to work with people you like #reflections2012
• Nobody really matters #reflections2012
• Nothing really matter #reflections2012
• Life has taught me not to get attached to people
• Dear Life, I do actually believe that I deserve better..
• I really wish i was emotionless ...fact
• بكره الناس اللي بتعمل عبيطة ...وغالبا علاقتي بيهم مبطولش .....
• Some people are full of shit...
• في مواقف صغيرة كده ...بتقفلني قفلت السنين ...
• #reflections2012 عرفت ناس كتير على حقيقتها السنة ديه... الحمد لله :)

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It was your home, your living room, your couch; we were sitting like we used to all my life; we were all together happy. One minute you were there laughing, then suddenly the light of life dissappeared from your face-again. You died infront of my own eyes - again, I couldn't believe it -again. Cried my eyes out more than the first time, I felt my head exploding from the sadness. Then suddenly the scene changed you looked peaceful in your bed, you looked at me and smiled I asked you if you feel ok, and you told me "I am fine, whenever I feel bad I read a certain verse from Qur'an and everything is ok" I kissed you on your forehead which felt so warm. Then, I woke up my pillow soaking with tears. Thank you grandma for letting me know you are ok. 

Something is Steering...

I made my peace for a few years now with keeping a distance between me and the people around me. Don't get me wrong i still have my friends and my best friends and family, I just learned to become independent, it is easier that way I shunned my feelings away to a great extent.

Recently I felt that this is changing, I feel the need to share starting to arise again. Maybe because the aggressive changes occuring around me at the moment in the country? or maybe because of the loss of my grandmother this year? or maybe because i got exposed to a lot of new people lately who care...

Should I give humans another chance? should I allow myself to deeply trust people again? I am not so sure just yet, if i do so and then it turns bad, I am not sure i can handle it well..

I hate being sensitive, it has always been my worst trait!

I wish I could take the habbit of writting to my blog, I just wish!!

I plan to write a blog post about my grandmothersoon , i think it is worth documenting some of the wonderful memories i had with her so that later when i get old (if God was so kind to me) I would read it and remember her and smile...

cheers for now