I made my peace for a few years now with keeping a distance between me and the people around me. Don't get me wrong i still have my friends and my best friends and family, I just learned to become independent, it is easier that way I shunned my feelings away to a great extent.
Recently I felt that this is changing, I feel the need to share starting to arise again. Maybe because the aggressive changes occuring around me at the moment in the country? or maybe because of the loss of my grandmother this year? or maybe because i got exposed to a lot of new people lately who care...
Should I give humans another chance? should I allow myself to deeply trust people again? I am not so sure just yet, if i do so and then it turns bad, I am not sure i can handle it well..
I hate being sensitive, it has always been my worst trait!
I wish I could take the habbit of writting to my blog, I just wish!!
I plan to write a blog post about my grandmothersoon , i think it is worth documenting some of the wonderful memories i had with her so that later when i get old (if God was so kind to me) I would read it and remember her and smile...
cheers for now
